look up and find me on the wall with nothing else

ever have one of those moments - when you least expect it - magnified by the smell or sounds or inner mood - you stop to realize that you exist - the worlds spinning slows - even your eye lids seem to make noise when they blink - it mostly happens to me at night - when i'm alone - outside usually - the moon is normally a factor - the crickets seem to compose the soundtrack - cool air often heightens my experience - i stop and realize that i am alive as if i'd forgotten - the air seems to bring more life to my lungs than i can remember - my body's motion reminds me of a masterpiece - all is clear that moments earlier seemed a blur - even the ordinary becomes fascinating - even a window sill and screen -

i had one of these the other night
unexpected
but welcomed
i am convinced these keep me going